Cake = Recovery....

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I heard the most amazing thing in my 6AM meeting this morning....

This gal is sharing about the Big Book and that she was told the 

The Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous 

IS suppose to be used like a text book, not read like a novel. 

Meaning -- it is to be studied and used as a tool to learn. 

So her example was that of making a cake....

To make a cake, you need the ingredients BUT you also need instructions!

Without the instructions, you just have .... well .... food. 

You may have all the food you need for the cake but you don't have the cake....

You need the instructions to create the batter and bake the cake.

Our Big Book is OUR instructions for LIFE!

If we do not use our Big Book, our instructions, all we have is ..... a book!

Our recovery is all about ACTION.

We must not only NOT drink, but we must work the steps to the best of our ability.

We learn how to work the steps by studying our book. 

We read it, and write about our steps, and go to book studies, 

and share with others our experience, strength and hope.

With this we pass along our knowledge to the next suffering alcoholic!

WOW ..... brilliant!!

What did YOU do for your sobriety today???

My day started off with that question in my morning meeting.
hhhmmmmmm......

Here is what I do each day for my sobriety....
1. Hit my knees every morning...
2. Go to my 6AM meeting...
3. Reach out to other Alcoholics...
4. Know what step I am on ... an work on that step each day .. not always possible but I try...
5. Call my sponsor .. ok ok .. so I totally STINK at this BUT I am getting better =)
6. Talk to my sponsees ... either in person, by text or on the phone.

Along with these I do other "actions" but maybe not each day.
Those things are:
1. NEVER say No when asked to do something for AA
2. write in my journal -- hopefully this blog will be helpful with this.
3. go to a Joe & Charlie Big Book study meeting each week ..
(I'm not in one right now but was asked to be co-leader of one starting in a month or two... yay)
4. work on my amends list ... cause I had a long list so I'm still working on them.

I'm sure I'm missing other things but this is all I can think of now.
Please comment =)
xo

Quote of the Day
Your biggest failure IS your greatest asset...

Step One...

My name is "sobermommie" ... and I'm an alcoholic.
Feels good right. It did for me the first time I could admit it... out loud... to other people.
I always felt different. I always felt like I didn't belong. 
I read self-help books. I went to support groups...not AA.. because alcohol wasn't my problem.
My husband is my problem.
My kids are my problem.
My childhood issues ... alcoholic parents, unstable family life, fighting, moving all the time, changing schools ... if you had my upbringing you would drink too. 
BUT my drinking isn't my problem.
((( my inner monologue for as long as I can remember )))
It wasn't until I could let go completely that the obsession was lifted.
So, on November 16th, 2009 - I arrived at Step One...
"We admitted we were powerless over alcohol -- and that our lives had become unmanageable." 
That is a mouthful so let's break it down...

I admitted I am powerless over alcohol.... in my terms - I don't know how to do "one".
I overindulge when I drink and one was NEVER enough... more, more, more!!!

I admitted my life was unmanageable.... I am so NOT in control!
Ugh .. that was a tough one. Honestly it still is. But I know it is my truth today and I am ok with that.

I work Step 1 each and every day when I get on my knees and pray to God (MY higher power).
I can not walk through my day without turning my will and my life over to God.
The way I do that is to pray for it each day.

Here are the two main questions I was asked when I started my journey (by my amazing sponsor)...
1. Do you think you have a drinking problem?
2. Are you willing to go to any lengths to stop drinking?

Answering "YES" to both of those questions.... I was on my road to recovery! 
finally....